Me

Role/Position:
Student
Sex/Gender:
F
Age at Assault:
15
Form of Assault:
Unwanted penetration (rape)
Incidence:
Multiple incidents over an extended period
Relationship to Attacker:
Intimate Partner
Location
Near metro Cote-st-Catherine

He said that if I didnt do certain things it meant that I didnt love him so I forcefully complied to do things that hurted me and humiliated me and that I did not want to do. I always though this wasnt rape because even if I cried or I wanted to leave I ended up agreeing with it so I always though I was responsible for what happened, furthermore I was conscentual for sex many times before in different settings and I assumed that once you say yes once it still applies for all the rest. I still dont know how I feel about it now appart from disgust, I still blame myself for most of it because I did not know what a healthy sexual relationship was.